Wednesday, March 19, 2008



Unflinching, human America this
Won’t be pleasant America this
Will be such a mess
America I’d like to America I’d
Like so much to pick & to choose America
‘Hands, heart, not value made us’
But you America you make me so very very
Therefore America Therefore I must America
What hurt America so much America’s what hurt
‘You’ America can there be a ‘me and’ now?
Can there America ‘we’ America, can ‘we’ come out?
America don’t make me say don’t force me to
Don’t or else America I swear I’ll
Say nothing say I see no way America together
Sometimes I think sometimes America
When America as small as the smallest heart
You are bigger than
Vicious close-fisted America so my face
America my face so hurt
Are you at all like me are you at all? Do you ever
So this is hard America this is hard to say
This is hard America
How to keep America if
To keep America
America is there any, is there any, else –
Is there none such America nowhere we
So hard America is TRYING seen see, see
America to you America for you and you just
America to you America in writing this to you
America that is to say America
Even if you America I do
Have a heart & it has America heavier than broken
Once again America our lives America is
Our lives are falling apart America
America so I want to sleep more once again &
I am sleeping more America to leave more
America again our lives
Worry, work, wait, broke, work what’s made us
America they are falling apart & we know

America that is to say America but

Last night I will tell you America I had
But do you care?
A dream sleeping more America as I was
In some small town some America where
But do I care?
Straight rows America of corn barely
Tall America barely green & next to them
America I know it’s stupid
Something seeded & in less than
A day I could see America sunflowers
Had grown taller than the corn & greener
Casting long shadows America & tilting
But what does it mean America today &
I know you think it stupid
It means nothing America nothing anyway
To say today to say I am so sad America

Sometimes I think sometimes America

Dare I say it America baldly America dare
I say America it so loudly America dare I
Dare you to say it
What is it you think you deserve America?
I was trying to say I am
I was trying to say America
You seem America now to have lost me
Do you really want to? Say you don’t need
What it is America say what you want from &
What it is you want America to deserve
America you must but you
Won’t America won’t you say you once
Loved me enough to say
You wanted America what is appearing

Us least as of love America could
Be no more giving than America
Listen America I am more tired
Than tired America
I wanted so to tell you so
America about America &
Listen I wanted to weep
Were ‘we’ ever better America ever
Sincere as America how can you not
& I wanted to know why
Will you not open America & then
A crack – will you not let it yet
Clacked closed so quickly how America
Too tired America fundamentally closed
Take root
How could you? Fundamentally America
What make us most America I thought so
Listen the noise under America is part of
Is more the music than
The music America briefly singing in
A face America that is to say America
I am aware of how this sounds &
A voice was America was trying to keep
From breaking America & did you hear
But it was bigger than this taking such care
Sometimes America music in spite of music’s systems
I thought you must have America since
I thought America past hope of such
Why wouldn’t you cling then to

I can no more disown than disown America

Though America would disown me
There it there a voice broke America there
Did you even – America & not even how
Will it end America it will & then
How can I go on with you if
Will you be worth it America in the end
You forget the noise the music needs if system’s are to be
Will it in the end America will it have been worth it if
One should say America that is to say alone
Do not break this or I WILL let go
‘NO NO NO’ America don’t spit out what heart’s
Left America don’t spit it out & say it is for music’s sake

America that is to say but then America did SPIT

America once again our lives


these will not save them

America is this what you think I deserve America

America it is America you mourn for

Unflinchingly human America as if
Anything has changed America here have
You always been America so? America
This is what you’ve done
What I’ve done
To me America I am saddened by
America I am so by how much I –
And here America I have been too free
With what I mean America that is
To say America
Believe America start over as if
Without me
Because America if you hear nothing
America but America because I
Loved you once America
Surely such sadness means
& now I’m not so sure
I care America for how hurt you may be
America’s what hurts America
& what my life America your life depends on

Sometimes I think sometimes America maybe

A postscript America perhaps America if
Your heart is America everywhere &
So America therefore nowhere then
Say what the fuck you mean America
Honestly or else America is it about
The money? America can you be
Bought America because truthfully I too
Am waiting working waiting America for
My money America & if I had America
If I had it all I’d give it to you America if
You’d say America if you’d say then
Everything everyone everywhere would be
America would you be okay then America?
That is to say America if you still care
America more than small America our lives
Need more than small kindnesses to
Cling to America in our lives are needed


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